decision

I decide that I will take IELTS this summer break. before now actually I don't plan to take it in this semester.

I change my mind because I realize that it is the fear that I can't do well for I haven't prepared enough, essential meaning that I want to avoid failure instead of copying with it.Now I think I want to do it and must do it, like throwing the bag over the wall and I must come up with a method to go across the wall then I can focus on the point that I haven't noticed before and think about how to use the things I already have.