I originally think tonight I don't want to waste my time and I want to engage myself in the playing badminton. But I just don't feel ease when someone was watching me, especially someone would make a comment on me in my hypothesis or imaginary thought. At this point I realized that I care too much about my judgement by others and I focusd on the negative.
it reminds me that I need to focus on the positive and cultivate my abilities for benefit finding and creating, like the one I met in the field who is the natural benefit finder.
So that I am gratitude for playing badmintons and having a comfortable environment provided for us.
another thing : she who is mentioned in Plan might just walked around the lake in the afternoon when I try to leave a note. I don't want to regret missing .tomorrow I will try again.